First time in a very very very very long time that I said no to going out to a party. It actually wasnt that hard but now as its 10 and the tweets are coming in, Im regretting my decision. I could be out at a huge party in WLB doing shots and dancing like foook meee. But I really need sleep, because I still havent caught up since all those late nights on break, and my early morning wake up call today (YEAAA 6:30 for school). And also Wednesday is RUSKO so I want to be ready to go for that haha. So Im proud that Im a classy bitch, doing math problems instead of smirnoff shots ayoo
When my best friend since childhood found out her older brother and his wife were having a baby she said she couldn’t stop crying. She also said she felt like responsibilities were shifting and she would have to be a good aunt and all that. And I secretly smirked behind her back thinking Yea yea she’s such a sap. I have known for a long time that the day would come when my oldest brother Tim and his wife Katie would have a baby but the day has come. She is pregnant and I’m going to be Aunt Pam! And you know what I cried. I cried and Im crying as I write this and I’m not even sure why. Maybe because I am so happy for them. And maybe because responsibilities are shifting and I want to be responsible. And maybe because this came at the perfect time. I just ended the most crazy fucked up spring break of my life and now the responsibilities are back. And this kid is gonna bring me back. No more fucking around, I want to make it for this kid. I want to be that sweet, inspiring, amazing aunt and hold that little angel in my arms. And so basically what Im saying is I want to be good again.
i am so dumb. I have wantec to be with thisis kid for soo long and now he wants to coem over and stuff and i dont really care anymore. itslike its whatever now fuck him. fuck that fuck wasting ym time giving him what he wants when deep down i know i can do bettter n worse and fuck all of it. he even goes “ill be quic” like fuck you illo find someone else ughhhhh im gonna regret turnign him down ugh ugh too fooked up now
I had the worst high of my life today. It really turned smoking off for me. I dont know why it just made me hate everything. It was so weird. And I feel like absolute garbage right now and its 10 on a Saturday night. Like this is prime drinking time and Im moping around like a fucking pansy. :) So I think I need to wake up
I dont really think Im on the right track anymore. But I think all the tracks lead to the same place pretty much right? RIGHT? RIGHT? Agree with me, make me feel a little better that Im not too lost in this land of errr lost people? Hm im confused on what Im trying to say….I just wanna do my thaaaang ya dig ;)
Im so high right now and I feel so much better. I was a wee bit cranky earlier and now Im good to go. but ou know whats annoying..how the US cares more aboiut finding drugs than they do finding guns. Ok that came out kinda weird but really…gun control is an issue. why the fuck do they sell guns to every mother fucker that walks the street. oh yea sure heres an ak 47 machine gun, have fun with that. thats ludicrous. society is so fucked up. back in the 70s (omg i am obviously high) when guys got in fights they would whip out a knife and maybe cut the guy or something (ok this is bizarre lol on a rolllhere) and then the guy woulkd be fine. yea maybe he would go to a hospital and get it stitched but he wouldnt be dead. nowadays guys get in fights and BOOM hes shot and hes dead. and the fight would be over nothing and they would be dead. i mean obviously thats a weird situation but the us needs to stop fucking selling guns to everybody. and currently in mexico there is a drug war and the police of mexico (who are so corrupt and are basicaly all paid off by the drug cartels) that are trying to fight the drug cartels are being shot and killed and by what guns? our fucking guns. US guns end up in the hands of the drug cartels who are slaughtering people left and right. WOW that is fucked up. and now im all pissed off and losing my high hahaha ok im done.