Recently I have fallen in love with watercolor paints. I was feeling really crappy before, just in a lousy mood and then I decided why not paint? So I whipped out my old school 90’s water color set and some brushes and painted for two hours. It’s not like my painting was anything special but it just calmed me down. I lost all anger/disappointment/negative feelings and I gained a pretty picture for my wall :) Well actually it is not pretty haha it is really depressing and creepy lolzz. But anyways I like this new hobby!
for some reason im really angry. im in that horrible stage where your not drunk anymore but your not sober and it just sucks. like i just want to cry or pass out. wahhhhhhhh everything is so stupid. stupid boys. stupid girls. stupid lil world. fackitall
Im starting to think I should delete my tumblr. I end up spilling my soul on here and then I have the RANDOMEST people in school coming up to me saying shit about it. Like not only is that embarassing…awkward….did i say embarassing?…but like my codes aren’t even that good. Like fucking C I shoulda at least changed the letter!! Grrr. Oh and by the way I take what I write as a hungover moody bitchy joke just so ya know. And all my haters probs think im fucking NUTS. So to clear the air, I do not drink every night and me saying “I like to wear short dresses to do shots in” is a joke. Like yea it happens…but OH FUCK THIS. Why am I even bothering to explain myself? I don’t really give a shit. If people are gonna read it then whatever judge my ass. I like it.
HOLY SHIT I WAS JUST WRITING A HUGE DRUNK RANT ABPUT HOW I HATE HIM AND AND HE SUCKS AND IT WAS BOUND TO FAIL A DN THEN BOOOOOOM HE TEXTS ME SO SWEET APOLOGIZING. HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS I AM SOOO HAPPY
I feel really content. It’s nice to know that there are people out there who actually treat you right. I’m done with dealing with people who treat me like shit and it feels soooooo nice. I freeeeeee :) and my brother is home. Notihng makes me happier than when he is home. He is my favorite person ever and I can not wait until I am 21/ get a good fake id so I can go to bars and clubs with him. That will be sooo fun!! Oh just a random weird sidenote…for some strange reason my brother is home for one night and already meets the boy I am hooking up with at a party that I am not even atteneding. Like what are the chances of that…….?!?!?? So bizarre…must go chat about it with him/wake him up right now!! Haha farewell lovely tumblr….i just wrote twitter then realized i am on tumblr LOLL ok im in a way too good mood right now its funny
What a fucked up disgusting night. I feeel guilty happy drunk sad lonely and confused. I wish I had a real life. Im so sick of this fake bullshit. I dont want to hang out with any of these people. I vant wait for college. But I mean I think I like C. Whatever who knows.