I am angry I lost my camera. I am angry C is a fucking idiot. I am angry I can not find a guy. I am angry Im sick. I am angry I drink so much. I am angry I have so much work and I put it off. I am angry my new crush has a girlfriend. I am angry my mom thinks Im fine. I am angry I am fat. I am angry I ate dinner alone tonight. I am angry I have to go live with a fucking idiot tomorrow. I am angry that I am going out right now to drink with everyone. I am angry that I continue to make bad decisions on a daily basis. And lastly I am angry that I have been blowing SO much money lately. K bye.
I want to write a screenplay off my Dads idea about Big Tom. I am so going to do this. I really really have to. After Thanksgiving break I will start because I know for this next week I am going to be very very fucked up. It is actually frightening and I am halfway dreading it. Last night was the beginning and it was crazy. I mean it wasnt that out of the ordinary for the crew here but still it was the preface of what this break is going to be. And what this break is going to do for my mind, body, and soul. Haha say Goodbye to those 3.
I tried to dye my hair brown, but it stayed blonde. I tried to get addicted to drugs, but no one had any. Tried to get addicted to cigarettes but I got carded? Tried to be a whore but he had a girlfriend. Every time I try to change or do something new and fun it fucking fails. It’s so irritating. I need something exciting in my life and I just can’t find it. I mean other than a empty bottle of vodka but that is getting far too redundant and out of control. Everytime I drink it seems like I lose a friend. But thats another post dear Tumblr.